One of the topics I addressed is fully embracing who God made you to uniquely be. It has taken memany years to accept who I am and who I am not. So often I would look at other women I respect and admire and wish I could be more like them. Wished I was more contemplative or deep or studious. I have friends who go on spiritual retreats alone and are quiet for days at a time. One of my worst fears in life is to go on a silent retreat. If there are no people and no talking allowed, count me out. That is just not who I am, but for years I thought I needed to morph into that type of women. Now that does not mean I cannot appreciate those who are like that. In fact, I really admire them. That is just not how I am wired.
I have found that I get quiet by moving, Don't know if that makes any sense at all, but when I am riding my bike, walking on the beach and even driving in the car, I can connect with The Lord and hear better than when I am completely still. I do get still at times and value that time too.
I now have accepted that I love people, need people and enjoying doing most things with someone else much more than alone. I really like to cook but I LOVE to cook with someone. I like to shop, but I LOVE to shop with a friend. I like to bike, but I LOVE to bike with a friend.
It has been so freeing to embrace how I am wired and not try to change who I am. Don't get me wrong. I always want to grow and be challenged to develop as a woman. I just want to do it as I embrace who I uniquely am. So, that's it. I will just be the best version of me and no one else. What a relief.
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| Making crepes with my neice Sydney at the beach |
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